No.187
I guess this
https://wn.rudolfsteinerelib.org/Lectures/MG1442_index.htmlessay could be the final document that leads me to Christianity. Such an unbelievable profoundly written essay…
>The highest Spirit of the Earth had to incarnate in a physical body; this body had to die, it had to be killed and its blood had to flow. A special meaning is attached to this. Wherever there is blood, there is Self. The Self rooted in the blood had to be sacrificed in order that the old communities based on Self might come to an end. All individual forms of egoism flow away with the blued of the Crucified Christ.